People come and go

2 years. And its done.

She left. And I'm still here.

It's so awkward and uncomfortable, living and surviving alone. 2 years, I'm in college and been accompanied by her. Now, I'm all alone again. There's no one that I can spend and waste my time with.

The good side is, I have so much free time for my own self. I can do this, I can do that.
Worst part, I feel a bit lonely. Sometimes, I feel the scar was bleeding again.

After so much we've been through together, she seems to easily moving on from all the memories.

Yet, it's not fair to blame her. It's not fair for her. It's okay I guess. If I care, I wouldn't put the blame on her. She did nothing, she just prioritize herself before me.

But, this song really match how I feel toward her after she left.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zFKhxaMShV0

Found you when your heart was broke
I filled your cup until it overflowed
Took it so far to keep you close
I was afraid to leave you on your own

I said I'd catch you if you fall
And if they laugh, then fuck 'em all
And then I got you off your knees
Put you right back on your feet
Just so you could take advantage of me

Tell me, how's it feel sittin' up there?
Feeling so high, but too far away to hold me
You know I'm the one who put you up there
Name in the sky, does it ever get lonely?
Thinking you could live without me
Thinking you could live without me
Baby, I'm the one who put you up there
I don't know why
Thinking you could live without me
Live without me
Baby, I'm the one who put you up there
I don't know why

New Beginning

Haven't been writing for years now. I wanted to write again. Here, I created a new blog to share my life stories with much more open and realistic way of deliveries.

So, whats with the 'New Beginning' for the title's name?

I feel like, I've been reborn. I feel new. I walk my path with new roads, with new perspective and new goals. Much more complex, much more realistic and much more mature lifestyle, I hope.

Currently, I'm on my 3rd year in being university student. Taking Software Engineering course, at University Malaysia Sabah. This semester, I'll be preparing for my first Final Year Project. Maybe, I'll be a bit busy. But, I'll write as much as I can.